You are so beautiful.....

You are, so beautiful, to me,
you are, so beautiful, to me,
can you see, you're everything i hope for,
you are, everything i need,
you are, so beautiful, to me.

Its an classic old song, originally from Joe Cocker.
Many singers have this song in their albums.
I embeded Emil Chau & Kenny Rogers version as well.
Chau's is the first version i know, & the Rogers', would be the most impressed.

This song represented a true heart from a man..
True feeling, about how much he love the girl.

In many cases, a man sing this song,
exactly, when he is proposing.

I used to plan to keep this for last,
for you.

But, for the broken relationship now,
and i can't even have your attantion by being only one normal civilian of all,
i can sing this only to myself.

Back to the song.

It said about how much i love you, and you are everything...

And unfortunately,
that is exactly why i got dumped.

Friends said,
you're gonna got another better girl,
you should totally get over it, its already some time, right?
why dont u try to make some more new female friend?
blah blah blah...

Ya, totally understand.. but cant do any of that.

I told you about this blog,
but i don't think you will really come and check out often.

Your life is plentiful, interesting,
you have many friends, you have lovely family,
even you are everything to me, i can only be one of many,
A.K.A, not THE ONE,
and i will never be a big part in your life and in your mind.

There's already a blessing for letting me in for some parts inside.

There's nothing left for our love.
The love that we used to have, we used to feel together.

I am always wondering,
how can it be vanished just like that?

I am not expecting anything anymore. I can't.

As i remember, i was stunning,
totally like the world is collapsing when you first told me that you dont have feeling anymore, your love is fading....

And then you wanna pause the relationship.
I said it'd never can be good again after you do that,
not because we are actually not meant to be each other,
not because what kind of girls or boys that we really want or need,

Its because of a distance that is being kept.
A distance which already there, and is widening by pausing the relationship.

Keeping a distance can find the feeling back?
Who said that?
Rediculous.
Things can only get worse by that.

We lived together...But live life seperately...
And so, the distances would came from the heart...
We could have fix that, if the other choice is made.

However, everything is passed.
And what is passed, is the past.

You are already moving on,
while i'm still cursed, and tied up.

You've done nothing wrong.
You just choose to have a better life by yourself, that's all.

So,
never mind any of that...

Since everything had already passed,
the song i kept for the last moment of our "single" time,
can be played here.

I wish i could sing for you by myself,
in fact, i really did,
although you might never heard it.

And i quote those words i wrote to u a very long time ago,
which might never reach your hand, either.

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"Maybe you are not the most beautiful girl in the world,
And you probably not the smartest girl on earth either.

But, i can tell you, you are the prettiest girl that i've ever met,
and today, i have to tell the world,
that even the whole universe is nothing to me,
when i have you in my heart.

There's no any girls can get into my sight with you by my side.
You are so beautiful to me, that from the first day i know you,
everytime i saw you, i cant even move my sight away from you.

And this is still happening right now.

You may not be a perfect people, and so am i,
but our imperfections are exactly what brought us together.
We thanks GOD for arranging everything nice and well for us.

You are so special to me, you make me pray,
i pray everyday that i can get your attention,
that i can know you, talk to you,
and have your love.
Thanks GOD for answering, and assigning this relationship.

And now, the time has come, i have to admit,
you're already everything that i hope for,
you are, everything i need.

I love you."

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How silly is it?
I stored it in a secret folder in my harddisk.
Discovered a few days ago...
Seems like GOD's keep reminding me that,
i still have something to do, on the girl, on the relationship,
just like the time, when HE stop me from killing myself.....

YOU tell me what to do, YOU're the boss.
She deserved a good life without me, and she's happy with that,
and i won't wanna bother her, although i still love her.

Ya, i love her, but i am not in love with her.

Mixed (Joe Cocker + Emil Chao + Kenny Rogers)- You Are So Beautiful